We had a victorious Konquerors 2009, night number 2!

I don't have the time to blog the full details now, so I'm just putting up the pictures!

We have been tremendously blessed! =DD



And yours truly needs to sleep noww!! But I shall blog the full details soon, if not next week after all the Christmas events are overrrr!! yeeeps!

Oyasumi people!

Just returned from the first night of Konquerors!

Pastor Mark rocked! =)  It has been 3 years since Casting Crowns came to our church and Pastor Mark & Melanie have been, and still are such a blessing to us!

Tonight's Konquerors was for the leaders - all those who held a ministry, regardless of whether its ushering, traffic marshall, security, music, ycg or cg, etc..

We have been tremendously blessed by Pastor Mark's sharing as well as his special numbers..

He talked about how, in the past, he felt like he wasn't good enough for God to use him, but the thing is, we don't have to be good enough, BECAUSE God is good enough. =D

And he also told us that Satan always pushes our buttons when we want to step out and do something for God. Satan first tells us that we have a problem, and that we are the only ones with that problem. That's when we start feeling that way and break ourselves away from the people around us.

How true it is... When you're together with many people, it's harder to bring you down. But when you're all alone, it's so much easier to take you down..

Pastor Mark gave us these verses:
2 Corinthians 12:7-10 (New Living Translation)

So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud. Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

 
1 Corinthians 1:26-29 (New Living Translation)

Remember, dear brothers and sisters, that few of you were wise in the world’s eyes or powerful or wealth when God called you. Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful. God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important. As a result, no one can ever boast in the presence of God.

"Extraordinary means, blooming where you're planted, pouring your life to the people where God has placed us. We have to see our ministry this way."
His sharing is extremely timely..  =)

I almost wanted to give up completely, but thank God for Pastor Mark, he hit the bullseye on what I'm going through, and has been such an encouragement..
 
I can't wait for tomorrow night!!  It's getting late and I need to sleep!!!

Anyways, I spoke with the Halls, and they remember meeee!! woooots!  AND AND AND, when i was back-uping during service, Melanie winked and smiled at me when I was singing! haha! X )   Super happy! And they were actually in florida in september! =(( i missed them! haha.. yeeeps!

I'M SORRYY! I know I'm ranting, but I'm super star-struck!! X )

Photooos!!



Heres the funny thing, I think I havent used my accent for a long time (except for last night where I spoke to Pedro over the phone) and when I spoke to the Halls, I had to repeat myself a few times! lol!
BUT BUT BUT, when I spoke to my mum, I had to repeat myself toooo.... SO I DON'T THINK ITS MY ACCENT! Cuz I knowww that americans can understand meee!!!! duhhh!!! 4 months in the land of the sunshine state! Anyways, it might be cuz i'm losing my voice.. Think my body is too heaty, and I haven't been having much sleep.. bahhhh...

This will be all for tonight.. it's late!!! Hopefully I'll be able to blog more tomorrow... hehe..

Good night people! =D

I finally received the call today.

UQ has accepted me into their school. And if everything goes as planned, I most probably will be heading there..

I am pretty sure this is what God wants me to do even though my heart says otherwise...

oh Lord.. please help me to accept Your will...


My heart feels like its being ripped out in pieces.. I miss you so very much.. Hearing your voice just made all the memories flood back.. I should never have let you go..
Perhaps.. if it's meant to be.. we'll be back together someday again... I love you.

Okaaay! This is gonna be a super short post, cuz yours truly is feeling extremeelllyyy LAZY right now! haha.

New Moon with sab was fantastic!!! and I 'OOOHH'-ed when Taylor Lautner AKA Jacob Black, TOOK OFF HIS SHIRT!!!

Sorry Edward.. In terms of physique, Jacob won, hands down! =D
But you're still the most romantic and passionate guy.. hehe.. *sighs dreamily*

And after the movie, we went shopping, and then headed to hearts on fire..

After service, we actually wanted to find a place to sit down, drink and talk, but we decided against that, and we settled for something really RANDOM! =D  We decided to have a SLEEPOVER! haha..

So once the shuttle bus reached tampines, we headed to sab's house, and i waited while she showered and got ready for her stuff for the next day, and after she was done, we cabbed down to my house. Got ourselves a bowl of mee sua, then went to my house to begin our very impromptu movie marathon cum sleepover! lol..

Anyways, it failed, cuz both of us were out around 2 plus.. haha!  While waiting a walk to remember! We TOTALLY missed the ending.. yeps.

I love ms sabrina yong! =DD  She rocks my socks! haha!

And here are some pictures we took on the bus ride to tampines.. hehe... (the complete set of photos are on my Facebook!)



When you put crAzy and craZy together, you get, CRAZY-IER! haha!

I thank God for a friend like her.. =)


Time for me to go! I need to recharge.. The next few weeks are gonna be extremely hectic.. lol..

Toodles~

I got this from my godmum, who is also my aunt.. And it so applies to me right now! bahh...

By T.. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something.. I've got the gift of good-bye.. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye.. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains .......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you.

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction.. . . .

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you! u have a bad attitude... . . ..

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him.........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship . . ...

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves. .. . ...

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ............

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying 'take your hands off of it,' then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

'The Battle is the Lord's!'

'Yes, I love my God. He is my fountain of Life and My Savior. He Keeps me going day and night. Without Him, I am no one. But with Him, I can do everything, Christ is my strength.'

It's soo timely it's scary..

I can't stand myself! being depressed all the time. urghh! I honestly hope I can get out of here soon, and leave everything behind. I want to start a new life, far away from everybody I know.

That'll be the best.

Alas! =)  I'm the proud mama of my second baby!!  haha! 
If you're wondering why it's my second child, it's cuz my ipod is my first baby! hehe..

Anyways, I went with my dad, trini & kyna to get this! We waited in line for 2 hours!! We occupied ourselves by watching News Concert (trini & me), while dad & kyna were doing sudoku and word search.. haha.. It was pretty funny, cuz my dad doesn't know how to play sudoku, and the girls were trying to teach him.. and guess what? now he is hooked on it! haha! X )  hilarious!

So yeeps! My new baby! =))




I'm tireeddd! 

I got home around 11 plus, and I discovered my very sleep-deprived dad, napping on the couch! haha! I went to him and said, "DADDDYY!! You haven't seen me for so long, and all you can do is wake up and 'huhh' me?!" And his reply was: "Oh. You're midori right?" hahaaaa my dad is funny.

Anyways, my dad is back, and he said that he'll get me an iphone when I start work, and tadaa! I AM working! so YAY! I wanna go and get with him soon! So excited! =DD

Then filming today was kinda slack-ish, but yet in a hurry.. lol.. After church, walter, singtee, dixon, jiayan & me hung out at 18Chefs for lunch, then jiayan went off and the rest of us went to walter's house to chillax.. And guess what I found out when we went to his house? 

HE HAS A BABY GRAND PIANOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! IN HIS LIVING ROOOM!!!!!!!!!  danng! Sing Tee & I fell in love with the piano ever since we've first laid eyes on her... =D And we took turns playing! hehe.. It has always been one of my many dreams to play a grand piano, and even though this is a baby grand, the music coming from her was absolutely beautiful... =)  Well, I couldn't play very well (the result of not continuing my lessons) but still, I enjoyed playing! and when it was sing tee's turn to play, I sang! =D

I decided to erm, remember this moment! haha.. I was playing the only full piece I know, Marriage D'Amour.. haa...


It was really very very COOL. 

Okaay, so about filming, we didn't start until 6-ish, and we still had to go over to Shawn's house.. bahhh.. X )  We ended up filming at some rooftop that overlooks the swimming pool.. It was pretty fun, and we managed to wrap up EXACTLY BEFORE THE LIGHTS WENT OUT!  It was amazing, like God was with us when we were filming... Praise God! =)

May He be with walter as he edits the video.. lol..

Uh-oh, my eyes are closing! It's been a long... I've been up since 6, laughed too much from michelle pranking people with her fake lump of shhhiitt... lol and lots of singing today... I'm drained!

Gonna crash as soon as my hair is dry. Nights people~  hope you'll have nice dreams tonight!

Heyo people! =)

I think I've officially gone LOCO! haha! X )  I'll explain more later..

So today I went to replenish my supply of contacts at chong pang, and I got a pair of grey coloured contacts and 6 months supply of the normal contacts! =D  And after that, since I had time before practice starts, I went to Yishun Library to get myself some books!

And guess what I borrowed?!  SPANISH BOOKS! oh well, not really, they are books that teach people Spanish.. haha!

I'm into Chapter 5 of The Complete Idiot's Guide to Learning Spanish! =)  "Idioms Aren't for Idiots" lol!
It's not easy, but I'm determined to learn SOMETHING. =D

So far, I've learnt that:
caro = expensive
comer = to eat
flor = flower
hay = there is
libreria = bookstore
joya = jewel
pan = bread
sopa = soup

Well, I've learnt more than that, but these are called False Amigos! haha.. Meaning that, the words look like english words, but they don't have the same meaning..

Yeps, I'll do what I can to master my 4th language! =D  yaay!

Anyways, updates!
- Still nothing from UCF, and ruth messaged me to check if UCF replied or not, and I told her that they didn't.. So worst case scenario, if I don't get in for the Spring Semester, I'll apply for the Summer intake.. and another thing that I gotta do before then, is to TAKE MY SATS! Nobody told me that I should even take it in the first place!! bahh!! Not even when I spoke to the school's representative when he came to Singapore for their education fair!! -_-   grr... So this may be the reason why they are still delaying my application.. I totally didn't know about it, honestly! ='(  sia la... I need to waste my money getting my stupid transcripts translated again.. sigh sigh sigh....
- Another update is that I'll be part of the MTV for christmas! hahaa... yaaay! Filming is fun! X )
- Oh yaa... I thought I had to go for my grandma's birthday dinner just now, but the date is changed to this coming tuesday.. Cuz that's her actual birthday, and my cousins are also free on that day..  yeeps~

Thats about all for today, and I'm gonna crash already! Need to go to church early tomorrow cuz I'm on duty!

Nights people! Buenas noches! (good evening!) haha! =D

Hola Amigos!

It's 3am in the morning and I'm still not sleeping! bahh!

Here are the photos for tonight's Colour Friday! It was pretty fun, the taking pictures part I mean.. haha..


You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold


Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay


But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone


'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone


Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin


Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay


For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone


Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there


You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart


You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay


You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart


You are not alone...

Hopefully...

I was supposed to go out tonight, but once again, it didn't materialise... sigh..

Why do we allow ourselves to hope even when we know things aren't gonna happen the way we want it to?

The beauty of hoping is knowing that things ARE gonna flow in the direction that we want.. But what happens when it doesn't? What do we do when situations turn out to be something that we don't like?

I'm having one of my emo-crap moments again, and I really can't stand the person that I've become.. =(

When have I become so weak in my mind and heart? When did I let people get to me so easily? When did I cry so easily?

I remember there was a time where I never cried unless I was really sad. But now, the slightest sad thing, makes me cry.. Ohmy! Does that mean that I'm hitting menopause soon? haha. To think that I can still joke with my feelings all messed up. lol.

Perhaps the stress of what has happened, is happening, or might happen is taking a huge toll on me.

The uncertainty of studying, the feeling of loneliness and abandonment.. They're overwhelming..

I made a promise.. to become stronger.. but it's just so damn hard.

Sometimes, I really wish that I could rely on another person.. I wish somebody would always be there for me.. haha. but that's too much to ask for isn't it? Jesus is always there, but somehow I need a physical assurance. someone by my side, someone to make me laugh and forget about my troubles, my worries, even if it's just for a moment.

I think I expect too much. haha. Maybe then it won't come as a surprise if I end up all by myself. ha.

I'm tired of people expecting me to be happy all the time. I'm not a robot, I can't be programmed to be optimistic all the time.

I hate the way I've become. God. Please just let me get out of here. Please.

I had a pretty crappy day yesterday, and its BECAUSE OF A CERTAIN SOMEONE!

Totally killed my mood. And I spent like some time whinning to sab about this whole issue. Told her that I've never wanted to **** someone upside down so badly in my life! For those who know me, I never swear. AND, I don't intend to break my own rule. Pedro told me that I might do it if I was really angry, and I seriously came close to doing that last night. GOSH. And you know what, my face was burning from anger, like red, HOT & burning.

I totally saw it coming. I had a strong feeling that I was being avoided, but dang it, I allowed myself to hope. GRRRR....

Okay okay, I'm cooling down. Well at least I'm trying.

Ling (gabriel) says that it's not worth it to get so upset, so yeah, I am gonna listen to him. bahh! Besides I don't want to have wrinkles noww! It's still too earlyy!!

I WASH MY HANDS OFF THAT PERSON!!

As in the words of 2NE1's song, I DON'T CARE-EH-EH-EH-EH-EH.

And I'm OUT for now!

I was too tired and I didn't have time to post this on friday and saturday, so here it is!  =D

After HOF, sab & I went to karaokeeee! We had tons of fun, sang lots of songs, and I finally heard aaron sing Breathe Easy. (its a favourite on my playlist now! haha..)  it's an awesome song, and hes a goood singer! woots!

We're gonna have another session soon at TEO HENG! haha!  X )  it's a pity that they don't have those clappers thingies and the maracas like in party world, but we'll sure as heck make things fun even if its just the 2 of us.. lol.


So apart from our random karaoke session, nothing interesting is happening in my life. haaa... Captain's ball yesterday was pretty tiring, and it'll be even worse when we have our final face-off with a certain region next week. ha.

Oh yaaa, I'll be getting my iphone soonn!! Mum is giving it to me for my 21st bday present! =D  But I'm still contemplating if I should get it here, or should I wait until I go back to florida and get it.. =S   Hopefully UCF will get back to me asap so I can start making plans! bahhh...

My life feels like its a routineee!!  It's time to spice things up!!!

Do you ever wonder why people do the things they do?

I'm having a random, oh wait, not so random moment.

I was on the way home just now on the MRT, and this GUY BESIDE ME WAS PICKING HIS NOSE AND STUDYING THAT PIECE OF... THING.  I was soo disgusted!  urrgh!
I mean, this kind of thing is best saved for the privacy of your home, and not on the train where you're in full view of everybody in the same cabin as you.. bahh!  I was so scared that he would flick the sai on me! geez... some people are just so inconsiderate!

Okay, since I got that out of my system, I'll talk about something else. haha. But then again, I don't think I have much to talk about, except to whine about how much work makes me sleepy, lol, and how much I wanna go back to florida!

It's a week to the end of november! Hopefully I'll get some kind of closure by then.. 

Meanwhile, I'm having fun at work, kinda. X )   It was a sleepy morning again! But I survived the afternoon!! Yay me! haha.. I'll be alone in the office tomorrow cuz my colleague isn't coming! Hopefully I'll be able to do everything by myself.. haha..

Hmm.. Colour Friday tomorrow night.. Don't think I'll be doing anything after that, so I guess I'll skype people! >.<

Okay, I think that's all for today. I'm gonna try to have an early night..

TOODLES! =D